.:: y'om say'n? word. ::.

.:: Friday, October 31, 2003 ::.

holy smokes, it's snowing in the sierras!! 8-12 inches! so much snow in tahoe, that boreal is opening tomorrow!!! wow. it's a bit early. i don't know if i'm ready for the season yet. i still want to get new boots. and i really need to tune my board. guess i should do that soon, especially if the lifts are opening up already!

:: joyCleeP 6:34 PM [+] ::
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it is way to hot for the end of october. wtf is going on? all weekend, i was so zonked of any energy (i put full blame on this unusual heat), on sunday, i took TWO naps!! sheesh.

i really hate daylight savings. i know to most it's really not a big deal, and in the fall, it's actually kinda neat to have an extra hour to do nothing. but it's not right to get off work at 4:30 to watch the sunset. wha...?

:: joyCleeP 7:06 PM [+] ::
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i really should know better than to expect so much. but still, i was really hoping that runaway jury would be a great flick. *sigh* i just need to stop watching movies based on books. they shouldn't even say "based." it's more like "very loosely similar in character names and a couple scenes." i think if i hadn't read the book, the movie would've been better. but there were too many important things they glossed over. not to mention the biggest difference being the subject matter of what the case was about. sheesh. w and i thought we were in the wrong theater at first, cuz the opening scene was so off. hah. although the movie was okay, i'd skip the movie. read the book instead. cuz the book is really good.

it's soooo hot. ugh. need more water...

:: joyCleeP 5:12 PM [+] ::
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i love "i love the 80's strikes back" on vh1!! i love the 80's. really, i do. i watched TJ Hooker. i had stir-up pants, and wore them with pride. i also went thru my share of jelly shoes. hey, they didn't last very long, they were made of flimsy plastic! i thought glow worms were disgusting; who wants a stuffed WORM? i listened to the thompson twins. to this day, sixteen candles remains one of my all-time favorite movies. i absolutely love that scene, when she's standing at the church, and the cars drive away, and the thompson twins' "if you were here" starts to play, she looks up and there's jake, waiting for her. *sigh* every little girl's dream. okay, maybe just mine. :P

:: joyCleeP 7:22 PM [+] ::
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got this from BPM, who got it from this website. 90% of it is frighteningly true! especially the part about "feeling under considerable pressure" and "trying to prove myself." whoa.

Much of the time you are preoccupied with things of an intensely exciting nature. You need stimulation and variation with all matters pertaining to your life. You want to be regarded as an exciting and interesting personality being able to charm and influence others. You use powerful strategies with predictable outcomes so as to avoid endangering your chances of success or undermining other people's confidence in you.

You are willing to try anything once. You 'need to be needed' and what is perhaps more important you 'need to need.' You can only feel close to a person or persons when you feel you can trust them, but this trust needs to be proven to you.

You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.

You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.

You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If it's not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.

:: joyCleeP 7:32 PM [+] ::
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next time you're out and about and realize you're dying of thirst, stop into your nearest starbucks (and don't say you can't find one, cuz that's a lie), and get a venti ice water. yum. and it costs $0.00. it's better than bottled. it's triple filtered. let me repeat. triple filtered. better than a britta. :P and did i mention it was free?

:: joyCleeP 2:25 PM [+] ::
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did you know that you can still buy easy-bake ovens?! i was almost tempted to buy one. :) i never had one as a kid, but always thought they were soooo cool. i was at target and saw it, along with the more "hip" baking machines, like the rice krispy treat maker, mc d's mcflurry makers and even cracker jack makers. hahaha. my mom used to make rice krispy treats in a wok. it was the only pan big enough for her millions of rice krispy treats. and have you seen these dolls called "bratz?" they're like ghetto barbie dolls, with little hootchie clothes and big lips painted in dark red, and way too much eye makeup. scary. sometimes i like to stroll thru toys r us to see all the cool toys kids have. d'you know there are little mercedes benz cars for kids? yeah, those are for the wealthier kids, who have moved up from the corvettes and jeeps. what little kid wants a mercedes?? my car of choice when i was 6? a trans am!! hahaha...

:: joyCleeP 5:40 PM [+] ::
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it's scary the things that go thru my head, after someone dies. i wasn't directly close to him, but indirectly very close. but his death makes me think about my own mortality. what will it feel like to be on my death bed, knowing that at any minute now, i could fall asleep and never wake up again. just waiting. this makes me hope for a quick painless death, sudden, no warnings. but then you think about the loved ones around you that have to endure this loss. hrm. it frightens me a bit, i'll admit. not that my life is going to all of a sudden revolve around the end, i just wonder what emotions you feel when that time does come along. i'm not a religious person. i was born into a catholic family. it's all i ever knew until i stopped going to church when i was 13. but there's still a part of me that believes in "god." not exactly sure of the precise meaning of "god," but the idea of it is comforting at times. i also like to think that there's more out there after you die. that when it's over, it's not completely over. but what happens to your soul? are you just floating around somewhere out there? wouldn't this "out there" eventually become way too overcrowded? then what? i guess it's just a way of telling myself that death isn't the end of everything. reassurance? or more like denial...?

:: joyCleeP 9:07 PM [+] ::
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i'm so frustrated with work!!! i feel like my managers are sort of testing me, to see how much pressure i can handle, and it's driving me crazy. hello, i only have 8 hours to do my work (i'm hourly, and OT is very much frowned upon). and i have a new manager. after my old manager left, we got a new CSM and i have a really difficult time working with him. i feel like he enjoys when i mess up. he is super forgetful and i'm reminding him over and over again, and he swears i never told him in the first place. AY!! and he says that he told me something, when he never did. i swear, i've never had this issue with any of the other managers i've assisted. so i know it's not ME. he's so irritating. grrr.

*sigh* thanks, i needed to get that off my chest.

:: joyCleeP 7:31 PM [+] ::
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so i really like my hairdresser gene (thanks to viva!). but i'm still not sure how i feel about my hair after my latest appointment with him on saturday. hmph. it's not quite the color nor the cut i was hoping for. i think i was just expecting something different, that's all. but he was "very pleased" with the color of my hair, so i didn't say anything.

i did manage to get my belly CDs from amoeba tho, both of them! $4.95 each! i love amoeba.

:: joyCleeP 9:02 PM [+] ::
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this morning at the gym, they played belly!! so as i did my wide grip pulldowns, i was singing along: "take your hat off boy when you're talking to me and be there when i feed the tree..." it took me back to my junior year in high school, when i used to give my friend keri a ride to school every morning. we both loved belly and would play that tape over and over in my car. i always meant to get it on cd, but never got around to it. i think i'll try to find it. maybe at amoeba?

speaking of this morning at the gym, on my drive there, it was unusually clear this morning, and the reflection of the moon on the ocean was soooo cool. it's so foggy in this area, that you forget how beautiful the ocean can be.

:: joyCleeP 8:02 PM [+] ::
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w has a very long commute to work, about 100 miles roundtrip. so he subscribes to audible.com where he downloads and burns books on CD. he started getting me into it, so now i'm "reading" the runaway jury. it started out slow, but is getting pretty good. it makes me not want to get out of the car in the morning tho. not good.

:: joyCleeP 7:37 PM [+] ::
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oh hell. i think i'll go ahead and move out of california now.

:: joyCleeP 7:54 PM [+] ::
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there are a lot of thoughts i have during my commute that i only hope to partially remember for when i'm actually at my computer. but it never happens. damn my short memory. hmm...maybe i'll think of it later.

:: joyCleeP 7:50 PM [+] ::
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last night we went to rouge in the city for a friend's birthday. i was amazed that i even convinced myself to go out on a friday night (very hard to do for someone who wakes up at 5am every morning). but a few out-of-town friends were going to be there and we wanted to say hi. i realized that i really hate going out. especially to a club. technically most of the people there knew the birthday girl, but it was still annoying to be around all these gross people. my life would not be any less fulfilling if i never stepped into another club again. ever. i hated the crowds, there were too many people to even dance a little bit without getting elbowed or stepped on. the music seemed extra loud, to the point where you couldn't even talk to the people next to you without literally screaming at the top of your lungs. so i sat with a friend and just people watched and laughed a lot. :) needless to say, we only stayed for a couple hours and headed out. what party animals. :P but it's great to go out every once in a while to remind myself that i'm not missing out on anything. not a single thing...

:: joyCleeP 12:17 PM [+] ::
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i soooo want to see the lion king again while it plays in SF. but the same old story goes, i have no money!! last year, w surprised me for our anniversary with a trip to LA and fantastic seats to the lion king at the pantages theater in hollywood. we stayed at the sofitel beverly hills in a great suite, and it was just the best surprise ever! sorry, don't mean to gush. but the musical itself is soooo amazing, between the props and costumes and performances.... i only wish i could've seen it on broadway.

i am freezing...i'm so not prepared for this sudden cold. i was tempted to pull out my wool coat to wear to work today! but i think i'll save that for colder days ahead.

i haven't given a celebrity siting update in a while have i? kate beckinsale stayed at the hotel a couple months ago. this week we have ari fleischer and sam donaldson, and roger craig. they're all guest speakers for an incentive trip for mr. ellison. i think that's all for now. it's always exciting to see famous people at the hotel. they're all much shorter and older looking in person. heh.

:: joyCleeP 7:36 PM [+] ::
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it's fall, and that means pumpkin season in HMB, the pumpkin capital of the world. at least that's what the locals claim. on my drive home today, i passed this one particular pumpkin patch like i do everyday, but today, there was a gray and black dog just sitting in the middle of all the pumpkins! i so wished i had a camera at that moment, it was picture perfect. i have that feeling quite often, where i see something notable and i really wish i had a camera. but of course, i don't. it's sitting at home, battery drained, nowhere near picture-ready. *sigh*

:: joyCleeP 7:34 PM [+] ::
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