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.:: Tuesday, September 28, 2004 ::.

there's something very therapeutic about weeding. yes, pulling weeds. it's also very addicting. we ate outside tonight, and after dinner, i just had this impulse to start weeding the backyard. and we have a TON of weeds. it was almost like plucking eyebrow hairs. i found it difficult to stop, even as it was getting too dark and i could hardly see the actual weeds. of course, this was the first time i've ever pulled weeds, and tomorrow morning we'll probably find a million little holes in the backyard, but at least there will be no weeds!!

this having a house thing is fun, though a lot of work. sheesh.

:: joyCleeP 9:49 PM [+] ::
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yea!!! (it's the japanese commercial, but i just saw it on TV for the US! finally!)

:: joyCleeP 3:58 PM [+] ::
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so i've made up my mind
(iiii'm keeping my babyyyyy, oooh, i'm gonna keep my baby, yeah). sorry, i just all of a sudden heard madonna after i wrote that line. :)

thursday it is. man...sh*t is gonna hit the fan. is that how the saying goes? all hell will break loose. well, that's what they get for being such pricks. i can do so much better. yeah.

:: joyCleeP 10:39 PM [+] ::
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there are 3 korean restaurants within a mile of our house. okay, maybe 2 miles. but THREE! we've only been to one so far, twice. royal tofu house. it's delicious! we're trying to become "regulars" there before we try other places. now, if someone would just open a korean market!

so we're at the final countdown til the wedding, and although i feel on top of things and very organized, i'll admit i'm a little stressed out. i'm trying not to freak out, but i guess it's normal. hrm.

i tried the pepcid AC trick last weekend, in hopes of not turning so red when i drink. it worked i guess. i turned red, but not as red as normal, and it went away really fast. but it gave me a really weird buzz. not like my usual buzz. i don't know how to describe it, but it was just a different, weird feeling. i think i'll just embrace my redness and have a normal buzz next time. next time...riiiiight. :P

:: joyCleeP 9:24 PM [+] ::
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i really need to change the look of this thing...i'm getting sick of it. i'll add it to my list of things to do after the wedding.

saturday is my not-a-bachelorette-party party. i told my maid of honor that i didn't want a bachelorette party, just a nice dinner and dancing with my girlfriends, those that are invited to the wedding, but especially those i couldn't invite due to facility constraints. my girls won't tell me anything...i'm kinda scurred. but not really, i'm more excited to see all my friends, especially those i haven't seen in a long time. yea!

:: joyCleeP 10:56 PM [+] ::
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it is unbelievable the amount of junk mail we get at our new house. seriously. everyday it's a huge stack. i have mountains of coupons already, knowing full well that i will never use them and they will all expire and remain on the counter. *sigh*

40 days to go...i'm getting a step closer to freaking out. :P so many little details left...must write everything down. excuse me...

:: joyCleeP 10:29 PM [+] ::
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i think i'm supposed to be more excited than i'm actually feeling. i think other ppl expected me to be more excited about this transition (especially those that made the decision for me, without much input from me). but somehow, i'm not. i feel like i've been thrown into a pack of wolves and it's my job to get everyone out alive. ugh. they just assumed this is what i wanted, and that's kinda what makes me upset i think. i mean, it's a promotion, so i should feel great, that i worked hard and now my hard work is finally paying off. this is what i've been working so hard for the last 6 months. and now that i have it, i don't know if this is really what i want anymore... what to do? and then there's the issue of HATING my commute. did i mention that it's costing me $400-500 a month to get myself to work and back? yeah, and when you're making as little as i do, that's a big chunk of change. not to mention the wear and tear on my poor little car. i've been passively looking for bigger better closer opportunities, but i haven't even decided if this is what i want to continue doing. so many things to consider, and such bad timing. still don't want to do anything before the wedding, but it's a month and half away...can i really hang on for that much longer? i guess i have to. be patient...

on another note, W left me to go to his bachelor party weekend. my first time all alone in our new house. this house suddenly became very very big...kinda scary...

:: joyCleeP 7:27 PM [+] ::
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yay! we have patio furniture! :) woohoo! although it's too hot to sit outside right now (yesterday it was 99 degrees!!) but i'm sure we'll enjoy it plenty before it gets cold. we're also getting an outdoor fireplace! how exciting! of course, we still don't have a dining table...but who cares! hahaha

:: joyCleeP 10:42 AM [+] ::
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i had to work yesterday, labor day, while everyone else got the day off... at first, it was depressing. but we had a major concert event at the hotel, so everyone had to work. it turned out to be a great day to work, cuz i got to see najee and chris botti up close and personal, thru a concert held by KKSF, a local "contemporary jazz" station. chris botti was the headliner, but i actually liked najee's performance a lot more. everyone thought the event went well, and i agreed, being that we're not in the concert throwing business. but we also learned that our hotel is just not able to accomodate 1000 people and their bathroom needs (even with 6 porto-potties) nor all their cars (some had to park a mile away and WALK).

i also learned a valuable lesson in patience and not always rushing things, even when there is an extreme sense of urgency. as they say, "haste makes waste." right?

:: joyCleeP 10:08 AM [+] ::
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i want one of these. in black. you can read more about it here. too bad it won't be out in the US til spring of '05...or else we'd probably just register for it! :)

:: joyCleeP 3:19 PM [+] ::
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